Permanent Ban Appeal - Anonymous Tiger (Denied)

[Anonymous Tiger]

In-game Name

Anonymous Tiger

Steam ID

REMOVED

Please provide a link to your previous denied appeal.

https://www.roleplay.co.uk/topic/108782-un-ban-appeal-Anonymous Tiger-030818-denied-redirected/
In your own words, please type why you think you were banned.

To put it bluntly, I was banned for making a very racist remark after being told to stop by Tiktak or face the consequences. Down below, I will try to explain what I think drove me to saying the stupid things I said that evening and why I think I should be unbanned. I would like to make it very clear that I do not stand by the things I said that evening nor am I in the habit of condoning rascist behaviour because I understand what kind of an impact racism can have on a person regardless of the context. Which is something that I will adress later in this appeal. Now, I do understand why the ban was put in place, to protect the community from the toxicity that some people possess. And if I was put in the same position as the admin I like to think that I would have done the same for the better of the community. I am ashamed of myself for saying the things I said that evening and I would like to apologize to everyone who was in the channel that particulair evening.
The rule that I broke is rule 1.2, (1.2) Discrimination of any kind is punished by a permanent ban without appeal

What have you been upto in the last 6 months+ ?

It has not been six months since my ban. (Tiktak told me I can appeal it instantly)

Why do you want to return ?

I miss being able to hang out on the teamspeak and just being able to talk to people. Since my ban from teamspeak I have realized how important the teamspeak is in order to have the full roleplay.co.uk experience and get the most enjoyment out of my time spent here.

Why should we unban you ?

As for why I should be unbanned, I have seen a lot of ban appeals for similair offences and the most common reason that is put forward as to why someone believes that they should be unbanned is that they have matured since the ban and that they are sorry for what they did. I believe that this is not the case with me (please note that I am indeed sorry for my actions, and not for myself.)
Since my ban from teamspeak I have stayed away from playing arma for the most part and enjoyed the summer. This has given me ample opportunity to reflect on my actions and after a lot of time spent thinking, I have come to the conclusion that my actions were the result of a lapse in judgement caused mostly by three internal factors (sleep deprivation, me having had a few drinks, but nowhere near intoxicated and being stressed out in general due to uni and the way I was playing on the server.) rather than a consistently toxic personality. the latter I believe to be a problem for the community and should rightfully be and stay banned.
In my case, I believe that given my track record which is fairly clean and me staying out of trouble for the better part of the two years that I have been here*, the fact that I have proven that I am a capable roleplayer by reaching the rank of docter in the NHS and INS in the police and considered by many as friendly and approachable, and the countless suggestions I have made to help improve the server show that I care about the community and that my personality is not the problem. Also, instead of having a little outburst after my ban, I took it on the chin and stayed away from the community for a while on my own accord in order to contemplate my actions. To me, this shows that I am not here to cause trouble, and instantly understood the gravity of the situation and respect the reason as to why the ban was put in place and community as a whole.
I would also like to make sure that everyone who reads this appeal understands that the comment that I said which got me banned was not meant as a serious statement, but rather as a joke in incredibly poor taste, and it is not the type of humor I am into. The reason why I continued after being warned by Tiktak are the three aforementioned reasons causing a lapse of judgement during which I made two critical mistakes, those two being: for some incredibly daft reason I took Tiktaks warning as a joke, and then I said the extremely vile thing that got me banned.
After being banned from teamspeak I spoke with Tiktak in game for a good ten minutes in a civilised way during which we discussed the ban and established the following: A. The ban is only for teamspeak and I am allowed to continue to play on the server, B. Titkak encouraged me to appeal the ban as soon as possible, C. Luckily no one in the channel was offended and lastly, D. Tiktak would put a hidden note for staff on the appeal (this might be a problem as Tiktak is no longer a staff member.)
If I was to be unbanned I would make sure that I never say such vile things again and never play all night and drink again in order to avoid things like this from happening again. I will try to join a small gang and just casually play every now and then instead of hardcore grinding the game. Also, in regards to drinking making people express their true views and intentions, I believe that this is not the case, I think drinking makes some people do stupid shit in certain situations and for a while now I have abstainded from drinking.

*Except for the two bans for fail RP from the same situation, but these were quickly overturned without an appeal and I am pretty sure that there is a note on them that they should not be taking into consideration if I was to ever put in an unban appeal.
*There might have been a few indiscretions in the past, but there was never a malicious intent behind them.
PS. This was written using my mobile phone, so please excuse the poor formatting and writing.

Edit - I have decided to include some extra information regarding the context of the ban, firstly I would like to add that the insensitive "joke" I made was not out of the blue. All throughout the evening people had been making jokes and as the evening progressed, people started making jokes like blanketbanthepolice etcetera and then people started to mention things like blanketban x or y (nothing about race, sexuality, or anything else that was classed as grossly offensive by the staff team member that was in the room) and then I took it a bit further by making a questionable statement after which I was warned by the member of staff that I shouldnt say such things. Then I instantly responsed to that by saying the vile thing I said and I was promptly (and rightfully) banned from teamspeak. Now, saying the thing I said warrants a ban by itself, and to add insult to injury, it was said right after recieving a warning. Now, as to why I considered the warning to be a joke? It was because of my personal relation with the admin in question, throughout our time spent together he would often jokingly say "Hey guys should we ban Anonymous Tiger for x or y" or teasing me by saying that I would recieve a ban as a joke between old friends. This combined with the three aformentioned stressors caused my lapse in judgement and made me say the thing I said that evening after being warned. Please do not be mistaken in thinking that I consider this to be an excuse, but rather an explanation for my utterly stupid action.

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I have read and understand the unban appeal process

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I confirm 6 months+ have passed since my denied appeal.

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[Matt]

I would like to make it very clear that I do not stand by the things I said that evening nor am I in the habit of condoning rascist behaviour because I understand what kind of an impact racism can have on a person regardless of the context.

So why did you say it then?

I can't count the number of people who have made appeals and said "Yeah I said racist stuff but I'm not racist!". Quite frankly it doesn't wash with me, we don't tolerate racist behaviour and I'm pretty sure you're aware we have a zero tolerance policy.

So you were told to stop by a member of staff to stop being racist and yet you carried on, so what's the point in letting your return if you've already proven you won't listen to staff and will so brazenly disregard the rules? Especially when that rule is a serious as racism?

 

[Anonymous Tiger]

So why did you say it then?

Again, although I do realize that there really is no excuse that is good enough for saying the thing that I said that night, but I think it was the combination of the aforementioned stressors and the fact that earlier that day I had a broken up with my girlfriend of 2 years. As to why exactly I said the thing I said, I still haven't thought of a good reason to say the thing I said or even any reason whatsoever for that matter. It was just an utterly stupid thing and I regret saying it. Now I am not one to get egged on by others and say disgusting things, but there were people in that channel that evening who turned out to be very toxic (like Blaine) and this might have caused me to believe that saying such things is acceptable.

Now you might be thinking, what is to stop him from getting involved with toxic people again after an otherwise really though day and say distasteful words like that again? Well, ofcourse there is always a risk of bad things happening on a day, but rather than trying to get rid of my frustration by playing arma, I will just go and hang out with friends and talk to them like I usually do when things bother me. The only reason why I even played arma that night was because the weather really bad and I didnt have acces to my car and there was just nothing else for me to do. In retrospect, I should have probably just went to bed or watched netflix instead. I have also joined a purely roleplayed based gang that offers me a rather friendly enviroment. I have also abstained from my bad habits since the incident.

I can't count the number of people who have made appeals and said "Yeah I said racist stuff but I'm not racist!". Quite frankly it doesn't wash with me, we don't tolerate racist behaviour and I'm pretty sure you're aware we have a zero tolerance policy.

I completely agree with you here and I am very much aware of the fact that the community has a zero tolerance policy which is why I am very greatful for the fact that I am even allowed to appeal my ban immediately.

Also, as some of you might know, I have been living on my own for a while now and I have multiple roommates who are POC, do you think for a second that someone who really is a racist would be able to do that? the thing I said wasn't  said because it was racist but rather because at the time I thought it sounded funny*, it was said in the spurr of the moment and I really did not put enough thought into it.

So you were told to stop by a member of staff to stop being racist and yet you carried on, so what's the point in letting your return if you've already proven you won't listen to staff and will so brazenly disregard the rules? Especially when that rule is a serious as racism?

This is where I beg to differ, I do not remember saying other things that were racist that night and if I truly said more racist things that night, than there is no acceptable explanation for that. I did say some things that could be classed as offensive, but nothing else that was racist.

The thing with the warning from Tiktak is, I percieved his warning as a joke instead of a serious warning due to my "frienship" with him and past experiences where he would often make jokes about banning me and my mind being clouded made me think that he was just jokking around and the warning was just another joke. 

The ban has made me realise what I said is completely inaccaptable and that Tiktak was infact not joking and that a warning from a staff member shoud always be taken seriously. (I know this seems very silly, but this is just the truth in my case.)

On a final note, I think that the whole evening was one big incident rather than multiple incidents and I have tried, to the best of my ability, to explain the events of that evening and now all I can do is hope that you will allow me to return considering this was one big screw up on my part and the fact that I am not a repeat offender, but just a player who said stupid stuff one evening after playing here for two years.

I like to think that if I am allowed to return, I could be an asset to the community because I am an experienced player, and therefor I can help people who are new to this community and show them the ropes like I have been doing with the orginasation I recently joined.

* Naturaly I do not think racism is funny, but at that moment I thought the combination of words sounded funny.

Ps. As you can see, I have put quite a bit of effort into this appeal and I think that this just shows how badly I want to return here.

 

[Wilco]

Come back when you've done some growing up and got that out of your system.