Unban Appeal - SonnyPebble_unban_ - GTA RP

[SonnyPebble_unban_]

Server: GTA RP
Character Name: Sonny Pebble
Steam ID: 76561198006341646
Ban ID (just the numbers): RPUK21109
Ban Reason: 1.6
Why do you think you were banned: Happy new year all,

I was community banned last year for knowingly and willingly allowing a ban-evading player to continue playing on the server without alerting staff to it. This mistake was then compounded by when I was approached by Staff instead of being transparent and owning up to me knowing of his evading for 2-3 weeks, I decided to lie and try to control the narrative of the questioning. I had presented information to staff both in a ticket and voice call to try and deflect it and continue playing on the server. As someone who has been previously staff, as well as held some leadership positions in my time of over 10 years on the server I understand the importance of Honesty and transparency when being in this community, however I still chose to act against it which has ultimately broke the trust in me being an active member of this community.
Why should we unban you: During the time I have been banned, I have still continued to play fivem albeit a lot less than I once was. The other communities I have been apart off for the last 5 months (think its been that long) does not come close to comparison to RPUK in terms of the people, the long term stories that have been made and continue to be made.

I've also spent time just thinking on my actions that led to my removal from the community, the time away has made even more clear that the ban was purely based on my own choices and dishonesty, and nobody elses. Which destroyed the trust placed in me as a member of this community and I am holding myself 100% accountable and taking full responsibility and ownership of that.

At the time, I allowed my time and effort that I invested into my ongoing roleplay stories and developing character arcs cloud my judgment, rather than acting with integrity I chose the wrong path of dishonesty and avoidance; worsening my situation and demonstrating my lack of judgement and understanding that warranted a community ban.

My circumstances around gaming has also changed since then, for those that know me and my history I'm finally expecting my first child in June, this has majorly shifted priorities and how much time i spend/dedicated to just playing games. My future playtime is going to be considerably lower than it was previously which because of this I feel like I am not going to be as I guess you could say addicted? or at least eager to spend every moment around RPUK and dedicating all the time I once had. I believe this led and was one of the biggest factors in my ban, as I spent a large majority of my days playing the game I felt that if I had lied to try and get myself out of being banned that I would be "happy" as I could carry on playing - however, as a rule of life its always best to own up and take responsibility when you've fucked up.

I am under no illusion that I am just going to be unbanned and allowed to waltz back into playing the community that I've been part of for 10+ years, however I am hoping to try to show to staff/whoever is reading this unban appeal that I am worthy of another chance to keep my nose clean and carry on playing here

PUK/ALUK (for the og's) has always been a community I have loved to be apart - the people, the stories I've made has been what has kept me here for 11 years now and I genuinely regret that my actions led to losing that
Please confirm that you have read the unban appeal process and rules: Yes

 

[C_Date]

Lets start with the base line

Why should we entertain trusting you as a player once again, after having lied to us with the full intent of obfuscating your involvement in a situation?

 

[SonnyPebble_unban_]

That is a fair question and ultimately there is no defensive answer for it, or any further deflection from me

You're right that I deliberately lied with the intention to obfuscate my involvement in it, there is no disputing that and I don’t expect trust to be restored simply because time has passed or because I say I’m sorry. At the time, I made a conscious choice to try and protect my ability and access to the comunity/server than to act with integrity, which is very much not who I am as a person. I was prioritising my own enjoyment and need to furfill my ongoing RP stories rather than thinking of the Community which in itself is very immature and narrow minded. This wasn't just a lapse of judgement — I knew better — it was a failure of myself in that moment, and I fully accept that it justified the loss of trust and the ban.

what has changed is not just my lack of being able to play, but perspective. Being removed from a community I’d been part of for over a decade forced me to sit with the consequences of my actions without any way to deflect or minimise them. If, and I know this is a big if, I am allowed to return I would not expect to be trusted immediately. I am expecting there to be a very very very thin minute line that I tightwalk on and the slightest wobble would ultimately mean I am gone, and I am willing to take on any restrictions if this appeal should be entertained

Ultimately, if the answer is that the damage I caused is irreparable, I’ll accept that. But I’m asking for consideration because i strongly believe I can one again be a positive member to the community without repeating the same mistakes that led to my removal.

 

[C_Date]

having previously been staff, and a member of this community for over 10 years. You know full well the standards expected from players, if they wish to remain a part.

This isn't the first issue youve been met with, in terms of breaches of trust. What sort of reassurances could you offer us, that would justify a leap of faith?

 

[SonnyPebble_unban_]

You’re absolutely right, and I won’t pretend otherwise. Given my history in the community and having previously been staff, the expectations on me were higher, and I failed to meet them
The reassurances I can offer is a promise of sticking to The rules set out and/or any restrictions placed on me while I continue to play here


Previously, I let fear of losing my ability to play on the server drive dishonest decisions and manipulative ways, I hold my hands up to this. With my life priorities now elsewhere, that pressure no longer exists in the same way, which removes one of the key factors that contributed to my poor judgement and decision making.

Secondly, if allowed back, I would expect — and accept — reduced trust and increased scrutiny of me while I’m active on the server. I’m happy to take on restrictions of what I am able to do/can’t do, character changes or arcs that they need to go on as well as understanding that any further breach, regardless of severity, would rightly result in permanent removal without appeal. Door shut, pad locked, bedrock and put in the ether never to be seen again


Finally, I can offer transparency and immediate accountability. If I were to become aware of a situation that required staff involvement, I would raise it without hesitation, no matter how small through the correct avenues

I know that asking for a leap of faith is significant given my history. All I can say is that I fully recognise that this would be my final opportunity, and I’m prepared to accept whatever conditions or limitations you feel are necessary to justify that risk for me to return here

 

[C_Date]

You’re finally taking accountability for the way you handled the situation. That means we’ve made progress in your absence.

Let’s outline a few things here.

No decision has been made yet, nor has the discussion ended, but thus far, taking your responses into account. I have some heavy restrictions in mind, should I decide to re-open the door. Restrictions that would make the front of heart leave.

Can you explain to me, why it is you’ve lied to someone that you’d spoken to in confidence for years? You can leave the names out for context, but you know the voice conversation and screenshots I’m referring to.